no i'm not talking about my boyfriend

how many times you want to crush my heart over and over again?
what kind of attitude is this?
not attitude towards me
but attitude towards Jesus


seriously
and i'm called to love and love over and over again
if only this is my own business
if only i'm doing this for myself



if only Jesus had not die on the cross for me
which he did

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sigh
alright i give in
it doesn't mean that you can continue to take grace for granted
it doesn't mean that i'll be bullied
it only mean that i'll continue to do what is right
and not do what is wrong
without looking at the left or right
i focus on You



the pain the hurt the wounds
i surrender to You

it's all for You
it's all about You
i'm humbled
it's all because of You
there nothing i cannot do with You
(Phil 4:13)


i can forgive i can love (o:

Hebrews 12:1-2

Let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which so easily ensnares us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking unto Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith, who for the joy that was set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.

Dr. T

A pastor's son was killed in a car crash 2 years ago.
The most precious son in the family.
2 years later, one day when the pastor was getting ready to preach, he was distracted.
God then ask him,
"What is bothering you my son?"
"I miss my son"
"But you had the memories and relationship with him"
"God I don't miss the relationship, but I miss fellowshiping with him"
"So do I."

"God have a relationship with you, but a Father longs to fellowship with you"

you can always have a relationship with people
in fact, you can have a relationship with anyone
including the hi & bye friends
but the difference is the fellowship part

likewise, God the Father miss to fellowship with you
to fellowship means not only to worship, sing songs
but to spend time, read His words
get to know Him more
and let Him get to know you more

it takes a decision
not time or people or anything
but a decision from within of you

Dr. T was awesome!
or perhaps last night's message was so for me
i was so focus
i don't feel the cold or any distraction
i was so totally sucked into the wonder of the Father
the love, the tenderness, the longing
i love you DaddyG! (:

ONE down (:

FIVE to go:-
- POB Tv Story Writing: 6th Nov
- MC Research Essay: 13th Nov
- AIIA Research Essay: 9th Nov
- POB Journal: 13 Nov
- IDM Html Assignment 3: 18 Nov

then.i.will.be. F.R.E.E

Yay!!!
:D

i'm starting to enjoy it,
and it is coming to the end

the WOG

the word of God is living and active


it comforts and strengthens
it is true and never change

the word of God is God Himself ♥

Assignment-ing now!
And ohh it's raining!
:D

cloudy, rainy days are good sleeping day :D

they are not too boring...
but i blame the environment i'm in now, Hah! :P
i'm so comfy i feel like sleeping~
*shifty eyes*

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! :P

During my Corporate Administration lecture yesterday..


Lecturer : "I need you guys to think out of the box when it comes to answering my tutorial questions. But there was a student who came and ask me whats The Box."

(Teh, 2009)

I know I'm mean but I miss being mean so i dun care :P

i feel so totally like this now :(



...because I overslept
*geram*

Some people just don't know how to talk, they S.H.O.U.T

There are inconsiderate people with LOUD voice here sharing the same space with me
=.=

Like HELLOoooooo?
Even though Media Hub is not Library
It is a public place still, you know
Not your own room
I'm not interested at your sarcasm or whatever else you want to say

I just hope my ipod can last me til they leave :(

it's a rainy day

i need... this!

T.T

and thus...

i'm looking for some nice, quiet, slight emo song. Haha. but i can't find. so anyway,

After my sem, I'm going to...
1. Work - for about 3 months, which mean i need to find a job right after my sem, cannot dilly dally
2. Go home - miss home very much, not that i dun like here, but i miss them, a lot a lot
3. Decide where to spend my Christmas
4. Go somewhere far with just one person
5. Put memories into frame
6. Take up a guitar lesson

i hereby posted them up so that you can hold me accountable before i chickened out/forget about them :P

To add on to the happiness, the boyfriend is cheering me up with the small little thing he did :P

<3

i found her! (:

I'm so happie today!

Mainly because I found a dear friend i've been searching. So happie! :DDDD I never thought it would be possible, you know, due to this and that... but, well just say that I'm so so glad to have her back.

Then I found out that she is no longer here in msia. Reading her blog makes me feel like I should grow up, as well. Thus lead to this mixture of feeling... i dunno how you say it in English, Chinese call it 惆怅. Looking for a song to describe how i feel now, but no. Can't find, guess I have been losing touch ever since... long time ago. Lol

the electricity supply was diabled this afternoon at home, so it was pretty warm. but it doesn't affect my day. i'm so glad.. that today is a fruitful day (: and no i dun wan to go into details of it. HAHA. (i know, what's the point of me having a blog right, but i guess this is the point, i write wat i want n the blog is mine so i dun care :P)

i shall continue to let my day be fruitful n sticking on internet will definitely spoilt my 'fruit' so byee! (:

No it is not supposed to mean anything

hahahahaha!

miscellaneous

Growing up, I regret very little. Since don't know when, I told myself that I would take up the consequences of whatever decision I made, so I don't allow myself to regret. I rejoice over good decisions that I've made, the bad ones, I would just bear with the it, knowing that as what I should do. (well I cannot runaway from it anyway. haha)

Then... I regret. Haha. And this time, I hope I can undo it. So badly it bothers my sleep =/

it is normal right? Haha. with that mindset, I have get over things so easily every time, i guess its time for me to learn and grow up with it this time. No pain, no gain. ah well :)

on a side note, i watched the boyfriend played basketball just now :D :D :D gaya. hehe.. been wanting to see larhhh, i didn't get the chance until just now... which is like... after 558days we've been together. Still enjoying nevertheless :P :P :P he plays very well le! Hehe and I'm being very objective here :D :D :D

When I was young, secretly I wished that my boyfriend is a basketball player when I listed down my boyfriend's requirement.

But no I didn't know that he is one when I fall in love with him, hehe. God is good huh? :P

bond

而我知道 我知道 这一切我全都知道
我就是 受不了

in the days of my life, i want to listen to them.lived.at least once

you know what

28 Sept - God stepped into my life and turned it upside down once again (:
30 Sept - He said: 'people still care' Stubbornly, me: 'No', Him: 'Yes', Me: 'NO. prove it'
and so... thank you very much for asking and helping, even though I didn't answer your question directly, you don't know how much I appreciated that.
1 Oct - My first success! and my CG members started to talk (: (: (: you guys don't know how much i love to just be there and hear you guys talk
2 Oct - Anticipating more clothes coming in in Nov :P






I think I know. I think I can make it again.
I need... a little of time. A smile. A hug.

Today is wasted

Red elmo

cutest ever! (: