Wednesday, August 19, 2009

I'm scared. 
):

Very.

Due to some problems that occur previously, I was 1 week late to my first semester of degree. Never would I know that things will be so different because of that. *sigh* That is just weird that time when I go to class, I was the only new one. Because everyone has already found their cliche, their group of people to hang out with. And there I was, lonely and freaky 'new' student who were 1 week late. Of course I still have few of my previous Diploma friends, but now... *sigh*

Things changed so fast. First is the culture, because of the difference in language, some very Chinese, some English. The demographic of the class then, separate people and stereotype them. Then, I am in Group 2 tutorial instead of Group 1, where my Diploma friends in. Which mean, I was really out of my comfort zone, with no one left with me.

And now, things changed. People changed. No one is the same anymore. My classmates are not a tad friendly. Other than a few that I am currently hanging out with, and my own tutorial groupmate... But generally... you can kill me. I miss my previous Diploma class so much.. They are always caring and we joke and make fun around the class. Which is, fun. Whereas my class right now, I wouldn't say that they are bad, but generally, not too friendly that you can ask things from them. They are not too willing to help also, like if they teach me, I'll get better than them, the primary school competitive mindset.

I'm really... quite, kind of, get tired of it. Imagine seeing these people everyday, and deal with them.. Why cant they just be slightly friendlier? You know I'm supposed to learn Photoshop right now, but I was stuck at the beginning just because I don't know how to open the pictures correctly. I know that's stupid, but I've never used that before, and to use it on Mac...  I asked, I asked them how they do it.. But they are too busy catching up with the tutorial themselves.. So they don't bother if the friend cannot get it.. Well, I'm not close to them, perhaps that's why. So yeaaa, I'm here, all the way behind my tutorial. I don't mean to blog or use the time to do my personal time you know, BUT what do you expect me to do here facing the comp?? In the end I managed to rectify the problem with the help from Michelle. She's so far far away.. She has to sms me to teach me. Yet those that just sit near me, cannot teach.

I feel like I've wasted the chance for others to practise on it. Maybe I shouldn't have take a com next time.

I know deep down, this is just another setback in life, I'll just have to response with love, and deal with myself, train myself to deal with this kind of situation more effectively, like maybe I should ask the lecturer how to do it instead? But I kinda hate it, to hear people keep calling "Sir" "Sirrrr" "SIRRRRRRR" everywhere, that's irritating, ain't it? Lol. Aihh. I seriously need to get over my emotion, I cant expect everyone to be helpful, or understanding, or whatever.

There are always people of all faces in our life, I guess God wants me to enhance my social skill now... I'll learn! Even if I have no one else, I have God, still. And other friends that are always willing and ready to help (:

A champion is not one who never fails but one who never quits! I can go through everything with my Daddy in Heaven

Thursday, August 13, 2009

Repentance: True vs Fake

True repentance caused us to humble ourselves to

resolve the problems,
deal with the root,
face the issues,
open for confrontation and rebuke
and gear up for a radical change.


Read more of it here (:

http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?pid=3841793&id=740066180#/note.php?note_id=122634091836&ref=mf
soundly asleep baby is good to baby sit :P


As I'm blogging away, my little nephew is soundly asleep on the mattress *cute* He & the sister are forced to quarantine at home as both of them are diagnosed with Hand Foot Mouth Disease, so I'm the babysitter while their parents away for work. It is.. well, quite okay, haha. Not as bad as I thought. They are behaving well, though the 3-year-old sister keep chasing me around and ask QUESTIONS, and the 2-year-old brother shouts and screams and wails at time, they are adorable to be with (:

Alright. He is awake now. Have to go now. Til then.

Friday, July 3, 2009

Chewing gum will caused puking


Okay so I puked on Wednesday
-.-
I was happily shopping with Sarah Poh and I started to feel giddy.
Everywhere I go, I smell smells that makes me want to puke. Literally, any smells. Food smell, pvc smell, clothes smells.. anything.
So we went into Ripcurl, to look at the bags that I like so much (oklarh so I ended up buying 1 of them, but regretted it now, I wanted the other white one instead T.T)
came out, rushing to the toilet across, and started puking.
I don't even know what is going on when I remember I was chewing gum the whole day

"Chewing gum will produce digestive enzyme, which are meant to digest food. So if you chew gum when you have empty stomach, you will of course, don't feel well"
(Lim, 2009)

Quoting from the boyfriend, and I believe him now =/ I puked twice in a day. But the thing is, I did had my breakfast, and my stomach feel very bloated so I didn't bother to take lunch as I 'feel' full. Well I guess eggs and bread are just not enough. *sigh*

Learning from the lesson, I shall...

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Use that method if I want to lose weight!
Hahahaa!
:P
continuation from the previous post



Ok continue on Monday.
I bought a pair of jeans, a tank top and a wedge within RM200
:D
Then on Tuesday... I cant remember what I did on Tuesday
-.-
Hahaa. I know I went Leaders Meeting, had a great supper with Shirley and Hazel and... I really cant remember anything about Tuesday *swt*
On Wednesday, (that's the day I wrote my previous post) I followed my bro in law out at 10am
. reach Old Taste (he's meeting a friend there and I have to follow cause the pathetic me dated Sarah yet have no car to come out)
. I was blogging and he halfway through I am called to go, that's why my previous post was left hanging
. So I left to meet Sarah at Pyramid, we shopped for a while, and AR Bernard at night and... well all that have to be in separate post so...

Til then (:


Okay I know I blog like a noob, give me some time. I am recovering from my blogless days :P

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

So finally...

I am now at Old Taste, SS2. Erm, r o t t i n g.
-.-
Oklarh a bit unhappy here buttttt

I had a super amazing weekend!!!
:D
Our church organized a Grooming & Toning Workshop to help and educate people who wants to improve on their dressing
And I was selected as one of the model!
:D
Gee. It was really an honor, I mean, due to my height, modeling is never my thing, and I was like.. kind of nervous, scare, and excited for Sunday.
And it turned out to be so much fun!!!
hee~
Everyone were talking about my hair, my heels, my shirt this and that...
(Oklarh none of them are mine, other than my hair, of course. Still! :P)
Everyone say Peter is the happiest person that day. Lol. Well I hope you do (:
The boyfriend and I went to Ikea after that, and found a very cute small 'house', we had a wonderful Sunday, or at least I had :P
Monday I went to KLCC with Ping (:


Ooh I continue my story next time...
Bye! (:

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Ohh and one last one before I forget

"Emotion is the key to success"
- Anthony Robbins

Powerful revelation ya?
Shirley shared with Sophia and me about this just now.
I want to be like her larhhhh.
Hahaa.
Simple breakfast that impacted me so much
I cannot stop boasting about it til now
:P

I shall start by living a righteous & Godly life!
(:
The art of W H A C K I N G

Oh did I mentioned that I've learned a lot from my beloved subzone leader?
The powerful Shirley Boon has taught me some quite important lesson yet again
It's like... so much it blown me away! *fuhh*
Hahaa.
Through the way she does things, I was like...
'okay, so that's what we should do, how we should say, from this angle hmmm...'
'Ohh I see...'

Hahaa. Confused?
Well just say that,
out of the heart to protect a member (together with other members as well),
she 'whack' (confront) someone with a heart of love and integrity
I am sure I couldn't do what she has done.

One simple morning breakfast over the table, I am just so amazed.
o.0

Then God reveal to me:
'Shirley did it because she wants to love, to teach, not only to protect the members,
BUT also that this someone to learn to live a better life'
She did it out of love, if me... I am sure I will be so blinded,
and I will do it out of confrontation =/
*I admit and am being very honest here*
So maybe I wont be harsh, still.
She did it in such a good way,
not harsh, but firm
teaching on our CHC uncompromising culture,
not condemning, but loving
imparting, and full of compassion at the same time,
She really did 'whacked' that someone hard,
yet she sincerely want that someone to live a better life.

I have so much more to learn!

Hahaa.
Okay I seriously need to focus on my assignment
:P
I feel so bad for telling Peter that he is slacking when he told me that he is not feeling well last night caused he sounded alright to me when he was trying to talk to me
and today he is on his bed officially declaring 'sick'
):
I am sorry dear
I am sincerely, truly, terribly, VERY sorry!
I am such a cruel girlfriend =/
I will learn ya.
I will *determined*
On another side of note, morning prayer was awesome!
(:
We prayed, and we pray, and we pray
Hahaa.
Isn't that what's all about? Prayer! :D
Too bad none of my members came, you missed it!
Haha its not like they going to read it or what, still! Lol
I am more purposeful, and joyful.

Off for assignment!
(:
I give up on my blog skin
-.-
This person who made this blog skin is a pervert
and I found no way to delete her pervertness
*geram*
Is there a way that I can have the background but with my old, simple layout???
T.T
And I cant even find my 'Blogger' Button my page to sign in to my Dashboard.
T.T

So sad larh this blog skin.
And I want my archive so badly
And I don't like to have so many boxes around
Why cant I just have plain items
=/

I want a new blog skin!!!!!
But I kind of like the hearts behind
Hehee
:P

I want to stop complaining larh
And I should
Ping you would help me to settle this right?
*hopefully*

Monday, June 22, 2009




The ever romantic love story (:
Romans 3:5 - Romans 4 (The Message)

But if our wrongdoing only underlines and confirms God's rightdoing, shouldn't we be commended for helping out? Since our bad words don't even make a dent in his good words, isn't it wrong of God to back us to the wall and hold us to our word? These questions come up. The answer to such questions is no, a most emphatic No! How else would things ever get straightened out if God didn't do the straightening?

7-8It's simply perverse to say, "If my lies serve to show off God's truth all the more gloriously, why blame me? I'm doing God a favor." Some people are actually trying to put such words in our mouths, claiming that we go around saying, "The more evil we do, the more good God does, so let's just do it!" That's pure slander, as I'm sure you'll agree.

We're All in the Same Sinking Boat
9-20So where does that put us? Do we Jews get a better break than the others? Not really. Basically, all of us, whether insiders or outsiders, start out in identical conditions, which is to say that we all start out as sinners. Scripture leaves no doubt about it: There's nobody living right, not even one, nobody who knows the score, nobody alert for God. They've all taken the wrong turn; they've all wandered down blind alleys. No one's living right; I can't find a single one. Their throats are gaping graves, their tongues slick as mudslides. Every word they speak is tinged with poison. They open their mouths and pollute the air. They race for the honor of sinner-of-the-year, litter the land with heartbreak and ruin, Don't know the first thing about living with others. They never give God the time of day. This makes it clear, doesn't it, that whatever is written in these Scriptures is not what God says about others but to us to whom these Scriptures were addressed in the first place! And it's clear enough, isn't it, that we're sinners, every one of us, in the same sinking boat with everybody else? Our involvement with God's revelation doesn't put us right with God. What it does is force us to face our complicity in everyone else's sin.
God Has Set Things Right
21-24But in our time something new has been added. What Moses and the prophets witnessed to all those years has happened. The God-setting-things-right that we read about has become Jesus-setting-things-right for us. And not only for us, but for everyone who believes in him. For there is no difference between us and them in this. Since we've compiled this long and sorry record as sinners (both us and them) and proved that we are utterly incapable of living the glorious lives God wills for us, God did it for us. Out of sheer generosity he put us in right standing with himself. A pure gift. He got us out of the mess we're in and restored us to where he always wanted us to be. And he did it by means of Jesus Christ.

25-26God sacrificed Jesus on the altar of the world to clear that world of sin. Having faith in him sets us in the clear. God decided on this course of action in full view of the public—to set the world in the clear with himself through the sacrifice of Jesus, finally taking care of the sins he had so patiently endured. This is not only clear, but it's now—this is current history! God sets things right. He also makes it possible for us to live in his rightness.

27-28So where does that leave our proud Jewish insider claims and counter-claims? Canceled? Yes, canceled. What we've learned is this: God does not respond to what we do; we respond to what God does. We've finally figured it out. Our lives get in step with God and all others by letting him set the pace, not by proudly or anxiously trying to run the parade.

29-30And where does that leave our proud Jewish claim of having a corner on God? Also canceled. God is the God of outsider non-Jews as well as insider Jews. How could it be otherwise since there is only one God? God sets right all who welcome his action and enter into it, both those who follow our religious system and those who have never heard of our religion.

31But by shifting our focus from what we do to what God does, don't we cancel out all our careful keeping of the rules and ways God commanded? Not at all. What happens, in fact, is that by putting that entire way of life in its proper place, we confirm it.

Romans 4

Trusting God
1-3 So how do we fit what we know of Abraham, our first father in the faith, into this new way of looking at things? If Abraham, by what he did for God, got God to approve him, he could certainly have taken credit for it. But the story we're given is a God-story, not an Abraham-story. What we read in Scripture is, "Abraham entered into what God was doing for him, and that was the turning point. He trusted God to set him right instead of trying to be right on his own."

4-5If you're a hard worker and do a good job, you deserve your pay; we don't call your wages a gift. But if you see that the job is too big for you, that it's something only God can do, and you trust him to do it—you could never do it for yourself no matter how hard and long you worked—well, that trusting-him-to-do-it is what gets you set right with God, by God. Sheer gift.

6-9David confirms this way of looking at it, saying that the one who trusts God to do the putting-everything-right without insisting on having a say in it is one fortunate man:

Fortunate those whose crimes are carted off,
whose sins are wiped clean from the slate.
Fortunate the person against
whom the Lord does not keep score.

Do you think for a minute that this blessing is only pronounced over those of us who keep our religious ways and are circumcised? Or do you think it possible that the blessing could be given to those who never even heard of our ways, who were never brought up in the disciplines of God? We all agree, don't we, that it was by embracing what God did for him that Abraham was declared fit before God?

10-11Now think: Was that declaration made before or after he was marked by the covenant rite of circumcision? That's right, before he was marked. That means that he underwent circumcision as evidence and confirmation of what God had done long before to bring him into this acceptable standing with himself, an act of God he had embraced with his whole life.

12And it means further that Abraham is father of all people who embrace what God does for them while they are still on the "outs" with God, as yet unidentified as God's, in an "uncircumcised" condition. It is precisely these people in this condition who are called "set right by God and with God"! Abraham is also, of course, father of those who have undergone the religious rite of circumcision not just because of the ritual but because they were willing to live in the risky faith-embrace of God's action for them, the way Abraham lived long before he was marked by circumcision.

13-15That famous promise God gave Abraham—that he and his children would possess the earth—was not given because of something Abraham did or would do. It was based on God's decision to put everything together for him, which Abraham then entered when he believed. If those who get what God gives them only get it by doing everything they are told to do and filling out all the right forms properly signed, that eliminates personal trust completely and turns the promise into an ironclad contract! That's not a holy promise; that's a business deal. A contract drawn up by a hard-nosed lawyer and with plenty of fine print only makes sure that you will never be able to collect. But if there is no contract in the first place, simply a promise—and God's promise at that—you can't break it.

16This is why the fulfillment of God's promise depends entirely on trusting God and his way, and then simply embracing him and what he does. God's promise arrives as pure gift. That's the only way everyone can be sure to get in on it, those who keep the religious traditions and those who have never heard of them. For Abraham is father of us all. He is not our racial father—that's reading the story backward. He is our faith father.

17-18We call Abraham "father" not because he got God's attention by living like a saint, but because God made something out of Abraham when he was a nobody. Isn't that what we've always read in Scripture, God saying to Abraham, "I set you up as father of many peoples"? Abraham was first named "father" and then became a father because he dared to trust God to do what only God could do: raise the dead to life, with a word make something out of nothing. When everything was hopeless, Abraham believed anyway, deciding to live not on the basis of what he saw he couldn't do but on what God said he would do. And so he was made father of a multitude of peoples. God himself said to him, "You're going to have a big family, Abraham!"

19-25Abraham didn't focus on his own impotence and say, "It's hopeless. This hundred-year-old body could never father a child." Nor did he survey Sarah's decades of infertility and give up. He didn't tiptoe around God's promise asking cautiously skeptical questions. He plunged into the promise and came up strong, ready for God, sure that God would make good on what he had said. That's why it is said, "Abraham was declared fit before God by trusting God to set him right." But it's not just Abraham; it's also us! The same thing gets said about us when we embrace and believe the One who brought Jesus to life when the conditions were equally hopeless. The sacrificed Jesus made us fit for God, set us right with God.

(Source: BibleGateway)

Not the first blog

So this is not my first blog, but is my first (or second) time changing the blog skin, seems like I am fairly bad at it =/

I don't like it laaarh....
1. Why is my cBox so off?
2. Why is the font PINK, can I change to brown instead?
3. Why is my posting all in brown font? Can I swap as I want?
4. Where is my header???
5. Where is my achieves?????
6. Why the date and time so off....
7. And why is my title not appearing....
8. ..... *wails*

And the whole things is way TOO SWEET
-.-

Somebody save me please. Please Please Please

Sunday, June 21, 2009

Smiling and Scribbling.
Are the 2 things that I love the best.
They are also the 2 things that I know how the best
(:
Once I thought, I am going to give up on them.
Once I thought, I don't know how.
Soon then I found out that...
Hmmm that's not quite right
Cause people around has never give up on me (:
Daddy has never given up on me
So I guess... I should never give up on them as well ♥

Thanks for journeying this life together with me
It will be different from yours,
it might be sorrowful at times,
but that's life you see;
tasteful, with salt & pepper, some sugar & spice
And I am sure it will, at the same time, be colorful as well.
Cause I serve an awesome, creative God

Much love,