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Due to some problems that occur previously, I was 1 week late to my first semester of degree. Never would I know that things will be so different because of that. *sigh* That is just weird that time when I go to class, I was the only new one. Because everyone has already found their cliche, their group of people to hang out with. And there I was, lonely and freaky 'new' student who were 1 week late. Of course I still have few of my previous Diploma friends, but now... *sigh*
Things changed so fast. First is the culture, because of the difference in language, some very Chinese, some English. The demographic of the class then, separate people and stereotype them. Then, I am in Group 2 tutorial instead of Group 1, where my Diploma friends in. Which mean, I was really out of my comfort zone, with no one left with me.
And now, things changed. People changed. No one is the same anymore. My classmates are not a tad friendly. Other than a few that I am currently hanging out with, and my own tutorial groupmate... But generally... you can kill me. I miss my previous Diploma class so much.. They are always caring and we joke and make fun around the class. Which is, fun. Whereas my class right now, I wouldn't say that they are bad, but generally, not too friendly that you can ask things from them. They are not too willing to help also, like if they teach me, I'll get better than them, the primary school competitive mindset.
I'm really... quite, kind of, get tired of it. Imagine seeing these people everyday, and deal with them.. Why cant they just be slightly friendlier? You know I'm supposed to learn Photoshop right now, but I was stuck at the beginning just because I don't know how to open the pictures correctly. I know that's stupid, but I've never used that before, and to use it on Mac... I asked, I asked them how they do it.. But they are too busy catching up with the tutorial themselves.. So they don't bother if the friend cannot get it.. Well, I'm not close to them, perhaps that's why. So yeaaa, I'm here, all the way behind my tutorial. I don't mean to blog or use the time to do my personal time you know, BUT what do you expect me to do here facing the comp?? In the end I managed to rectify the problem with the help from Michelle. She's so far far away.. She has to sms me to teach me. Yet those that just sit near me, cannot teach.
I feel like I've wasted the chance for others to practise on it. Maybe I shouldn't have take a com next time.
I know deep down, this is just another setback in life, I'll just have to response with love, and deal with myself, train myself to deal with this kind of situation more effectively, like maybe I should ask the lecturer how to do it instead? But I kinda hate it, to hear people keep calling "Sir" "Sirrrr" "SIRRRRRRR" everywhere, that's irritating, ain't it? Lol. Aihh. I seriously need to get over my emotion, I cant expect everyone to be helpful, or understanding, or whatever.
There are always people of all faces in our life, I guess God wants me to enhance my social skill now... I'll learn! Even if I have no one else, I have God, still. And other friends that are always willing and ready to help (:
A champion is not one who never fails but one who never quits! I can go through everything with my Daddy in Heaven
