who am i trying to kid????

and before i forget...

very happie for you! (;

of all the time, why now

:(

♥

http://blog.sina.com.cn/musiq

Been reading this (:

f.a.v (:

i have a feeling my hair is getting thinner and thinner
hoooooooooooooooooooow
=/

Happie 20th! (:

one of our girls have finally turn 20
she is none other than our dear Crystal Low!!!

she is always like the little sister among us
though she always act adult
hahaha :P
she is capable, creative, strong, and mighty
so yea..
i hope u had a good one just now
more to come
you waitttt
hahaa
so... just another

HAPPIE BIRTHDAY!!! (:
i love u
*hugs*

random

i have a very good sister
in fact,
i have a very good family
perhaps not the way others define 'good'
but just the way i define it
they are all kind people
who never failed to love me
as who i am
who never failed to cheer me on
though i screwed up badly
who picked me up and believe in me
when i disappoint them over and over again
they are all good people
who genuinely love, treasure and care for me
as who i really am
no matter how unexpected i can turn out to be
they are those that never said a word that'll made me feel bad
not even an exclamation
they'll just calmly bring me down
to where i belonged
the refuge they always have for me.. (:

another sad sad emo song

这街上太拥挤
太多人有秘密
玻璃上有雾气在被隐藏起过去
你脸上的情绪
在还原那场雨
这巷弄太过弯曲走不回故事里

这日子不再绿
又斑驳了几句
剩下搬空回忆的我在大房子里
电影院的座椅
隔遥远的距离
感情没有对手戏你跟自己下棋

还来不及仔仔细细写下你的关于
描述我如何爱你
你却微笑的离我而去
这感觉已经不对
我努力在挽回
一些些应该体贴的感觉我没给
你嘟嘴许的愿望很卑微在妥协
是我忽略你不过要人陪

这感觉已经不对
我最后才了解
一页页不忍翻阅的情节你好累
你默背为我掉过几次泪多憔悴
而我心碎你受罪你的美我不配

sad sad emo song

翻着我们的照片
想念若隐若现
去年的冬天
我们笑得很甜

看着你哭泣的脸
对着我说再见
来不及听见
你已走得很远

也许你已经放弃我
也许已经很难回头
我知道是自己错过
请再给我一个理由
说你不爱我

就算是我不懂
能不能原谅我
请不要把分手当作你的请求
我知道坚持要走是你受伤的藉口
请你回头
我会陪你一直走到最后

就算没有结果
我也能够承受
我知道你的痛
是我给的承诺

你说给过我纵容
沉默是因为包容
如果要走
请你记得我

如果难过
请你忘了我

ni hen ke ai

i went McD drive-thru for this just now...

there was one cashier who passed me the ice cream
and another Malay cashier purposely came over to the window and say
"ni hen ke ai"
hahahhahahaa
so cuteee la (i mean that Malay girl)
and her pronunciation is good too
i was a bit moody at first
then, she made my day (:


and i officially declare that i'm homesick
i miss home very very much
i knew it the moment mom called just to talk just now
but i was busy with s.t.u.f.f
such as assignments admin cg card blablabla
i want to cry
):

and no i don't feel like talking

Promise 6.11.09

clinging unto Your promise
i will focus on You
i will not look at my surroundings
i will remember Your promise
today is a memorable day (O:

1 Timothy 4

⁷Have nothing to do with godless myths and old wives' tales; rather, train yourself to be godly.
⁸For physical training is of some value, but godliness has value for all things, holding promise for both the present life and the life to come...
¹⁰(and for this we labor and strive)...
¹¹Command and teach these things.
¹²Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity.
¹³Until I come, devote yourself to the public reading of Scripture, to preaching and to teaching.
¹⁴Do not neglect your gift, which was given you through a prophetic message when the body of elders laid their hands on you.
¹⁵Be diligent in these matters; give yourself wholly to them, so that everyone may see your progress.
¹⁶Watch your life and doctrine closely. Persevere in them, because if you do, you will save both yourself and your hearers.

fruitful morning! (:

its just a mere feeling of reaction

but what we feel and what we believe to be true

is two different things

or rather what we feel and what is the truth

is two different thing

so focus on the truth

because feelings are deceiving

they are selfish and

just want things to be made felt our way

but truth is the truth ♥

(Saw, 2009)

Finance Management @ 130pm

being together is to pray for one another when one finds it hard (:

can Teddy pray? :P

happie BIRTHday Kenneth! (:

if you happen to read my blog, that is

hahaa :p

and i like this cake, cuteee rite?

:P

feeling this

:P

i had something to blog just now

then i forgotten

and this song pops up in my head

and keep playing...

Here I am a sinner,

broken and in need of you

Take my life and wash my fears away

For you are the great I am,

rest assured I feel Your hands

Holding me until the darkness clears

Father to the fatherless,

redeemer of my soul

My life is yours forever,

my heart will always know

Your mercy saved me,

mercy made me whole (:

the embed is not working, so here's the url

Parachute Band: Mercy

good morning daddyG! (:
prayer meet later,
it's gonna be a blast!
:D :D :D
for my beloved members who are having
exams/assignments/reports/classes
to deal with
i pray that you will always find strength and joy in Him
all the best!!! (:

Go green!

i have o-n-e!

*smile happiely*

nehhh, yours is not purely green

mine is!

and mine BIGGER

you seeeeeeee *blink blink*

don't you two fight,

i win~

i've got T.W.O!

Hahahaa :P

i hope it cheers you up somehow

*hugs*

overwhelming assignments

"smack"

Have you ever feel like
you are so excited you love this thing so much
you want to share with this person
you approach them with a big happie smile on your face

and the next moment you know
"smack"
your joy/whatever you want to share is on the floor
they don't even want to touch it

raindrops keep falling on my head they keep falling (:

sleeping day! (:



i know i'm a C person!
and i'm to keep my heart joyful
even though things are messy (O:

i'm falling in love with this big nose smile (0:
:P

no i'm not talking about my boyfriend

how many times you want to crush my heart over and over again?
what kind of attitude is this?
not attitude towards me
but attitude towards Jesus


seriously
and i'm called to love and love over and over again
if only this is my own business
if only i'm doing this for myself



if only Jesus had not die on the cross for me
which he did

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

sigh
alright i give in
it doesn't mean that you can continue to take grace for granted
it doesn't mean that i'll be bullied
it only mean that i'll continue to do what is right
and not do what is wrong
without looking at the left or right
i focus on You



the pain the hurt the wounds
i surrender to You

it's all for You
it's all about You
i'm humbled
it's all because of You
there nothing i cannot do with You
(Phil 4:13)


i can forgive i can love (o:

Hebrews 12:1-2

Let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which so easily ensnares us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking unto Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith, who for the joy that was set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and has sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.

Dr. T

A pastor's son was killed in a car crash 2 years ago.
The most precious son in the family.
2 years later, one day when the pastor was getting ready to preach, he was distracted.
God then ask him,
"What is bothering you my son?"
"I miss my son"
"But you had the memories and relationship with him"
"God I don't miss the relationship, but I miss fellowshiping with him"
"So do I."

"God have a relationship with you, but a Father longs to fellowship with you"

you can always have a relationship with people
in fact, you can have a relationship with anyone
including the hi & bye friends
but the difference is the fellowship part

likewise, God the Father miss to fellowship with you
to fellowship means not only to worship, sing songs
but to spend time, read His words
get to know Him more
and let Him get to know you more

it takes a decision
not time or people or anything
but a decision from within of you

Dr. T was awesome!
or perhaps last night's message was so for me
i was so focus
i don't feel the cold or any distraction
i was so totally sucked into the wonder of the Father
the love, the tenderness, the longing
i love you DaddyG! (:

ONE down (:

FIVE to go:-
- POB Tv Story Writing: 6th Nov
- MC Research Essay: 13th Nov
- AIIA Research Essay: 9th Nov
- POB Journal: 13 Nov
- IDM Html Assignment 3: 18 Nov

then.i.will.be. F.R.E.E

Yay!!!
:D

i'm starting to enjoy it,
and it is coming to the end

the WOG

the word of God is living and active


it comforts and strengthens
it is true and never change

the word of God is God Himself ♥

Assignment-ing now!
And ohh it's raining!
:D

cloudy, rainy days are good sleeping day :D

they are not too boring...
but i blame the environment i'm in now, Hah! :P
i'm so comfy i feel like sleeping~
*shifty eyes*

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! :P

During my Corporate Administration lecture yesterday..


Lecturer : "I need you guys to think out of the box when it comes to answering my tutorial questions. But there was a student who came and ask me whats The Box."

(Teh, 2009)

I know I'm mean but I miss being mean so i dun care :P

i feel so totally like this now :(



...because I overslept
*geram*

Some people just don't know how to talk, they S.H.O.U.T

There are inconsiderate people with LOUD voice here sharing the same space with me
=.=

Like HELLOoooooo?
Even though Media Hub is not Library
It is a public place still, you know
Not your own room
I'm not interested at your sarcasm or whatever else you want to say

I just hope my ipod can last me til they leave :(

it's a rainy day

i need... this!

T.T

and thus...

i'm looking for some nice, quiet, slight emo song. Haha. but i can't find. so anyway,

After my sem, I'm going to...
1. Work - for about 3 months, which mean i need to find a job right after my sem, cannot dilly dally
2. Go home - miss home very much, not that i dun like here, but i miss them, a lot a lot
3. Decide where to spend my Christmas
4. Go somewhere far with just one person
5. Put memories into frame
6. Take up a guitar lesson

i hereby posted them up so that you can hold me accountable before i chickened out/forget about them :P

To add on to the happiness, the boyfriend is cheering me up with the small little thing he did :P

<3

i found her! (:

I'm so happie today!

Mainly because I found a dear friend i've been searching. So happie! :DDDD I never thought it would be possible, you know, due to this and that... but, well just say that I'm so so glad to have her back.

Then I found out that she is no longer here in msia. Reading her blog makes me feel like I should grow up, as well. Thus lead to this mixture of feeling... i dunno how you say it in English, Chinese call it 惆怅. Looking for a song to describe how i feel now, but no. Can't find, guess I have been losing touch ever since... long time ago. Lol

the electricity supply was diabled this afternoon at home, so it was pretty warm. but it doesn't affect my day. i'm so glad.. that today is a fruitful day (: and no i dun wan to go into details of it. HAHA. (i know, what's the point of me having a blog right, but i guess this is the point, i write wat i want n the blog is mine so i dun care :P)

i shall continue to let my day be fruitful n sticking on internet will definitely spoilt my 'fruit' so byee! (:

No it is not supposed to mean anything

hahahahaha!

miscellaneous

Growing up, I regret very little. Since don't know when, I told myself that I would take up the consequences of whatever decision I made, so I don't allow myself to regret. I rejoice over good decisions that I've made, the bad ones, I would just bear with the it, knowing that as what I should do. (well I cannot runaway from it anyway. haha)

Then... I regret. Haha. And this time, I hope I can undo it. So badly it bothers my sleep =/

it is normal right? Haha. with that mindset, I have get over things so easily every time, i guess its time for me to learn and grow up with it this time. No pain, no gain. ah well :)

on a side note, i watched the boyfriend played basketball just now :D :D :D gaya. hehe.. been wanting to see larhhh, i didn't get the chance until just now... which is like... after 558days we've been together. Still enjoying nevertheless :P :P :P he plays very well le! Hehe and I'm being very objective here :D :D :D

When I was young, secretly I wished that my boyfriend is a basketball player when I listed down my boyfriend's requirement.

But no I didn't know that he is one when I fall in love with him, hehe. God is good huh? :P

bond

而我知道 我知道 这一切我全都知道
我就是 受不了

in the days of my life, i want to listen to them.lived.at least once

you know what

28 Sept - God stepped into my life and turned it upside down once again (:
30 Sept - He said: 'people still care' Stubbornly, me: 'No', Him: 'Yes', Me: 'NO. prove it'
and so... thank you very much for asking and helping, even though I didn't answer your question directly, you don't know how much I appreciated that.
1 Oct - My first success! and my CG members started to talk (: (: (: you guys don't know how much i love to just be there and hear you guys talk
2 Oct - Anticipating more clothes coming in in Nov :P






I think I know. I think I can make it again.
I need... a little of time. A smile. A hug.

Today is wasted

Red elmo

cutest ever! (:

do you know me?

Source: http://alwayscuilin.blogspot.com

i miss the owner of the pic

and i miss everything before i came over
will time go backwards
just once?

The hardest part is being content with who you are.

so near... yet so far

First of all, I am sick. That kind where your whole body pain, yet there's nothing you can do to take it away? With flu and cough and sorethroat and dunno wat else.

I am quite reluctant to blog actually, cause my eyes are painful whenever I open it, what with staring at computer screen right. But I got noone to talk to =/ Actually I cannot really talk also la, haha. I just want to do something, cause I cannot sleep even though I have been lying on bed for vvvvvvvvvvvv long. And the boyfriend is tired so I shouldn't have him to talk to me also. So I called Ping but her phone cannot get through BUT I can sms her! Stupid or not Digi -.-

Okla I admit I'm just bored =/

Love! :P

How could anyone not love this?
Righttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt
:P


I hope I'm filthy rich sometimes.
:P :P :P
Okla, all the time.
Hahaha!

Pain

I find it so hilarious sometimes.

Why should I care about others' lives? I don't get anything if they are healthy, or even if they are sick.

I trust that everyone has a choice, and sometimes even though we know what the choice will lead to, we still cannot do anything about it. Because they will not listen.

So you stand there, you see how they go through it. They bang the wall, sometimes they bang the wall over and over again, then come back, blame God blame everyone around, and still, never learn.

Their pride has blinded them, they are bigger than anyone else, the self is bigger than anything in the world.

But who am I to judge? I am nothing.

I am that one that banged the wall before, and still is, sometimes. I am no better. But seeing people keep doing it over and over again, made me feel so helpless. Helplessly pained. Secretly I want to help.

Sometimes I would rather I am fooled, that I don't know this. Then I won't feel so pained, then I wouldn't need to care, why do I need to care anyway. It has nothing to do with me. That is not my life that they are losing, that it has nothing at all to do with me... Nothing.

I will not be credited if they are good, I will not be blame if they are bad.

Give it away, let it go, and move on. Don't try to help, they wouldn't want it

New skin!

Yay!

I'm on with new skin! Haha ookay, so I don't know where to get nice blog skin or how to make one, but I can still get an okay one here. At least it is more user-friendly *happie*

Sometimes I really wonder, if anyone would be interested in my blog. My blog, is kind of, or VERY text-heavy, with the lack of pictures some more. Lol. Wellll, I wasn't like that. I was one hardworking blogger, at the beginning. I maintained and keep my blog up to date and all, but things happen people changed, I guess I have changed a lot. Looking back, I know I've really changed a lot.

I am currently, having loads in my mind, that I'm trying to clear off.

Pray for me?

My sister is sick, and I am really worry. She's one tough lady that I've seen, and she is one very important soul to me, she is the one who cheer and comfort me through ups and downs, even though she might not understand what I am going through at times.

Other than that, my niece and nephew are sick as well. And of course, Shirley. And my entire family, is not doing very well at the same time.

I am undergoing pressure that, well I hope I can sustain.

On a lighter note, I went Pyramid with Crys just now! :D

And I just cant resist this! :P

I bought the Mickey's, I cant decide between these two, I even tried tossing coin! Haha then Crys 'forced' me to choose by buying the other one, Lol :P

I'm so happie!!! :D

And I found this which Crys said cost RM20 online... So I didn't buy. I wanted it very much larrrrrrrrrrh. Hahaaa. And I like the picture this way :P

And here is the memory I don't want to forget...

I cant decide on which photo to post, Haha. So I posted 2 of me and my mom's :P

So yea.. I am 'supposed to' sleep like... 2 hours ago.

Toodles (:

I'm scared. 

):

Very.

Due to some problems that occur previously, I was 1 week late to my first semester of degree. Never would I know that things will be so different because of that. *sigh* That is just weird that time when I go to class, I was the only new one. Because everyone has already found their cliche, their group of people to hang out with. And there I was, lonely and freaky 'new' student who were 1 week late. Of course I still have few of my previous Diploma friends, but now... *sigh*

Things changed so fast. First is the culture, because of the difference in language, some very Chinese, some English. The demographic of the class then, separate people and stereotype them. Then, I am in Group 2 tutorial instead of Group 1, where my Diploma friends in. Which mean, I was really out of my comfort zone, with no one left with me.

And now, things changed. People changed. No one is the same anymore. My classmates are not a tad friendly. Other than a few that I am currently hanging out with, and my own tutorial groupmate... But generally... you can kill me. I miss my previous Diploma class so much.. They are always caring and we joke and make fun around the class. Which is, fun. Whereas my class right now, I wouldn't say that they are bad, but generally, not too friendly that you can ask things from them. They are not too willing to help also, like if they teach me, I'll get better than them, the primary school competitive mindset.

I'm really... quite, kind of, get tired of it. Imagine seeing these people everyday, and deal with them.. Why cant they just be slightly friendlier? You know I'm supposed to learn Photoshop right now, but I was stuck at the beginning just because I don't know how to open the pictures correctly. I know that's stupid, but I've never used that before, and to use it on Mac...  I asked, I asked them how they do it.. But they are too busy catching up with the tutorial themselves.. So they don't bother if the friend cannot get it.. Well, I'm not close to them, perhaps that's why. So yeaaa, I'm here, all the way behind my tutorial. I don't mean to blog or use the time to do my personal time you know, BUT what do you expect me to do here facing the comp?? In the end I managed to rectify the problem with the help from Michelle. She's so far far away.. She has to sms me to teach me. Yet those that just sit near me, cannot teach.

I feel like I've wasted the chance for others to practise on it. Maybe I shouldn't have take a com next time.

I know deep down, this is just another setback in life, I'll just have to response with love, and deal with myself, train myself to deal with this kind of situation more effectively, like maybe I should ask the lecturer how to do it instead? But I kinda hate it, to hear people keep calling "Sir" "Sirrrr" "SIRRRRRRR" everywhere, that's irritating, ain't it? Lol. Aihh. I seriously need to get over my emotion, I cant expect everyone to be helpful, or understanding, or whatever.

There are always people of all faces in our life, I guess God wants me to enhance my social skill now... I'll learn! Even if I have no one else, I have God, still. And other friends that are always willing and ready to help (:

A champion is not one who never fails but one who never quits! I can go through everything with my Daddy in Heaven

Repentance: True vs Fake

True repentance caused us to humble ourselves to

resolve the problems,
deal with the root,
face the issues,
open for confrontation and rebuke
and gear up for a radical change.

Read more of it here (:

http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?pid=3841793&id=740066180#/note.php?note_id=122634091836&ref=mf

soundly asleep baby is good to baby sit :P


As I'm blogging away, my little nephew is soundly asleep on the mattress *cute* He & the sister are forced to quarantine at home as both of them are diagnosed with Hand Foot Mouth Disease, so I'm the babysitter while their parents away for work. It is.. well, quite okay, haha. Not as bad as I thought. They are behaving well, though the 3-year-old sister keep chasing me around and ask QUESTIONS, and the 2-year-old brother shouts and screams and wails at time, they are adorable to be with (:

Alright. He is awake now. Have to go now. Til then.

Chewing gum will caused puking


Okay so I puked on Wednesday
-.-
I was happily shopping with Sarah Poh and I started to feel giddy.
Everywhere I go, I smell smells that makes me want to puke. Literally, any smells. Food smell, pvc smell, clothes smells.. anything.
So we went into Ripcurl, to look at the bags that I like so much (oklarh so I ended up buying 1 of them, but regretted it now, I wanted the other white one instead T.T)
came out, rushing to the toilet across, and started puking.
I don't even know what is going on when I remember I was chewing gum the whole day

"Chewing gum will produce digestive enzyme, which are meant to digest food. So if you chew gum when you have empty stomach, you will of course, don't feel well"
(Lim, 2009)

Quoting from the boyfriend, and I believe him now =/ I puked twice in a day. But the thing is, I did had my breakfast, and my stomach feel very bloated so I didn't bother to take lunch as I 'feel' full. Well I guess eggs and bread are just not enough. *sigh*

Learning from the lesson, I shall...

.
.
.
.

Use that method if I want to lose weight!
Hahahaa!
:P

continuation from the previous post



Ok continue on Monday.
I bought a pair of jeans, a tank top and a wedge within RM200
:D
Then on Tuesday... I cant remember what I did on Tuesday
-.-
Hahaa. I know I went Leaders Meeting, had a great supper with Shirley and Hazel and... I really cant remember anything about Tuesday *swt*
On Wednesday, (that's the day I wrote my previous post) I followed my bro in law out at 10am
. reach Old Taste (he's meeting a friend there and I have to follow cause the pathetic me dated Sarah yet have no car to come out)
. I was blogging and he halfway through I am called to go, that's why my previous post was left hanging
. So I left to meet Sarah at Pyramid, we shopped for a while, and AR Bernard at night and... well all that have to be in separate post so...

Til then (:


Okay I know I blog like a noob, give me some time. I am recovering from my blogless days :P

So finally...

I am now at Old Taste, SS2. Erm, r o t t i n g.
-.-
Oklarh a bit unhappy here buttttt

I had a super amazing weekend!!!
:D
Our church organized a Grooming & Toning Workshop to help and educate people who wants to improve on their dressing
And I was selected as one of the model!
:D
Gee. It was really an honor, I mean, due to my height, modeling is never my thing, and I was like.. kind of nervous, scare, and excited for Sunday.
And it turned out to be so much fun!!!
hee~
Everyone were talking about my hair, my heels, my shirt this and that...
(Oklarh none of them are mine, other than my hair, of course. Still! :P)
Everyone say Peter is the happiest person that day. Lol. Well I hope you do (:
The boyfriend and I went to Ikea after that, and found a very cute small 'house', we had a wonderful Sunday, or at least I had :P
Monday I went to KLCC with Ping (:


Ooh I continue my story next time...
Bye! (:

Ohh and one last one before I forget

"Emotion is the key to success"

- Anthony Robbins

Powerful revelation ya?
Shirley shared with Sophia and me about this just now.
I want to be like her larhhhh.
Hahaa.
Simple breakfast that impacted me so much
I cannot stop boasting about it til now
:P

I shall start by living a righteous & Godly life!
(:

The art of W H A C K I N G

Oh did I mentioned that I've learned a lot from my beloved subzone leader?
The powerful Shirley Boon has taught me some quite important lesson yet again
It's like... so much it blown me away! *fuhh*
Hahaa.
Through the way she does things, I was like...
'okay, so that's what we should do, how we should say, from this angle hmmm...'
'Ohh I see...'

Hahaa. Confused?
Well just say that,
out of the heart to protect a member (together with other members as well),
she 'whack' (confront) someone with a heart of love and integrity
I am sure I couldn't do what she has done.

One simple morning breakfast over the table, I am just so amazed.
o.0

Then God reveal to me:
'Shirley did it because she wants to love, to teach, not only to protect the members,
BUT also that this someone to learn to live a better life'
She did it out of love, if me... I am sure I will be so blinded,
and I will do it out of confrontation =/
*I admit and am being very honest here*
So maybe I wont be harsh, still.
She did it in such a good way,
not harsh, but firm
teaching on our CHC uncompromising culture,
not condemning, but loving
imparting, and full of compassion at the same time,
She really did 'whacked' that someone hard,
yet she sincerely want that someone to live a better life.

I have so much more to learn!

Hahaa.
Okay I seriously need to focus on my assignment
:P

I feel so bad for telling Peter that he is slacking when he told me that he is not feeling well last night caused he sounded alright to me when he was trying to talk to me
and today he is on his bed officially declaring 'sick'
):
I am sorry dear
I am sincerely, truly, terribly, VERY sorry!
I am such a cruel girlfriend =/
I will learn ya.
I will *determined*
On another side of note, morning prayer was awesome!
(:
We prayed, and we pray, and we pray
Hahaa.
Isn't that what's all about? Prayer! :D
Too bad none of my members came, you missed it!
Haha its not like they going to read it or what, still! Lol
I am more purposeful, and joyful.

Off for assignment!
(:

I give up on my blog skin
-.-
This person who made this blog skin is a pervert
and I found no way to delete her pervertness
*geram*
Is there a way that I can have the background but with my old, simple layout???
T.T

And I cant even find my 'Blogger' Button my page to sign in to my Dashboard.
T.T

So sad larh this blog skin.
And I want my archive so badly
And I don't like to have so many boxes around
Why cant I just have plain items
=/

I want a new blog skin!!!!!
But I kind of like the hearts behind
Hehee
:P

I want to stop complaining larh
And I should
Ping you would help me to settle this right?
*hopefully*

The ever romantic love story (:

Romans 3:5 - Romans 4 (The Message)

But if our wrongdoing only underlines and confirms God's rightdoing, shouldn't we be commended for helping out? Since our bad words don't even make a dent in his good words, isn't it wrong of God to back us to the wall and hold us to our word? These questions come up. The answer to such questions is no, a most emphatic No! How else would things ever get straightened out if God didn't do the straightening?

^7-8It's simply perverse to say, "If my lies serve to show off God's truth all the more gloriously, why blame me? I'm doing God a favor." Some people are actually trying to put such words in our mouths, claiming that we go around saying, "The more evil we do, the more good God does, so let's just do it!" That's pure slander, as I'm sure you'll agree.

We're All in the Same Sinking Boat

^9-20So where does that put us? Do we Jews get a better break than the others? Not really. Basically, all of us, whether insiders or outsiders, start out in identical conditions, which is to say that we all start out as sinners. Scripture leaves no doubt about it: There's nobody living right, not even one, nobody who knows the score, nobody alert for God. They've all taken the wrong turn; they've all wandered down blind alleys. No one's living right; I can't find a single one. Their throats are gaping graves, their tongues slick as mudslides. Every word they speak is tinged with poison. They open their mouths and pollute the air. They race for the honor of sinner-of-the-year, litter the land with heartbreak and ruin, Don't know the first thing about living with others. They never give God the time of day. This makes it clear, doesn't it, that whatever is written in these Scriptures is not what God says about others but to us to whom these Scriptures were addressed in the first place! And it's clear enough, isn't it, that we're sinners, every one of us, in the same sinking boat with everybody else? Our involvement with God's revelation doesn't put us right with God. What it does is force us to face our complicity in everyone else's sin.

God Has Set Things Right

^21-24But in our time something new has been added. What Moses and the prophets witnessed to all those years has happened. The God-setting-things-right that we read about has become Jesus-setting-things-right for us. And not only for us, but for everyone who believes in him. For there is no difference between us and them in this. Since we've compiled this long and sorry record as sinners (both us and them) and proved that we are utterly incapable of living the glorious lives God wills for us, God did it for us. Out of sheer generosity he put us in right standing with himself. A pure gift. He got us out of the mess we're in and restored us to where he always wanted us to be. And he did it by means of Jesus Christ.

^25-26God sacrificed Jesus on the altar of the world to clear that world of sin. Having faith in him sets us in the clear. God decided on this course of action in full view of the public—to set the world in the clear with himself through the sacrifice of Jesus, finally taking care of the sins he had so patiently endured. This is not only clear, but it's now—this is current history! God sets things right. He also makes it possible for us to live in his rightness.

^27-28So where does that leave our proud Jewish insider claims and counter-claims? Canceled? Yes, canceled. What we've learned is this: God does not respond to what we do; we respond to what God does. We've finally figured it out. Our lives get in step with God and all others by letting him set the pace, not by proudly or anxiously trying to run the parade.

^29-30And where does that leave our proud Jewish claim of having a corner on God? Also canceled. God is the God of outsider non-Jews as well as insider Jews. How could it be otherwise since there is only one God? God sets right all who welcome his action and enter into it, both those who follow our religious system and those who have never heard of our religion.

³¹But by shifting our focus from what we do to what God does, don't we cancel out all our careful keeping of the rules and ways God commanded? Not at all. What happens, in fact, is that by putting that entire way of life in its proper place, we confirm it.

Romans 4

Trusting God

^1-3 So how do we fit what we know of Abraham, our first father in the faith, into this new way of looking at things? If Abraham, by what he did for God, got God to approve him, he could certainly have taken credit for it. But the story we're given is a God-story, not an Abraham-story. What we read in Scripture is, "Abraham entered into what God was doing for him, and that was the turning point. He trusted God to set him right instead of trying to be right on his own."

^4-5If you're a hard worker and do a good job, you deserve your pay; we don't call your wages a gift. But if you see that the job is too big for you, that it's something only God can do, and you trust him to do it—you could never do it for yourself no matter how hard and long you worked—well, that trusting-him-to-do-it is what gets you set right with God, by God. Sheer gift.

^6-9David confirms this way of looking at it, saying that the one who trusts God to do the putting-everything-right without insisting on having a say in it is one fortunate man:

Fortunate those whose crimes are carted off,
whose sins are wiped clean from the slate.
Fortunate the person against
whom the Lord does not keep score.

Do you think for a minute that this blessing is only pronounced over those of us who keep our religious ways and are circumcised? Or do you think it possible that the blessing could be given to those who never even heard of our ways, who were never brought up in the disciplines of God? We all agree, don't we, that it was by embracing what God did for him that Abraham was declared fit before God?

^10-11Now think: Was that declaration made before or after he was marked by the covenant rite of circumcision? That's right, before he was marked. That means that he underwent circumcision as evidence and confirmation of what God had done long before to bring him into this acceptable standing with himself, an act of God he had embraced with his whole life.

¹²And it means further that Abraham is father of all people who embrace what God does for them while they are still on the "outs" with God, as yet unidentified as God's, in an "uncircumcised" condition. It is precisely these people in this condition who are called "set right by God and with God"! Abraham is also, of course, father of those who have undergone the religious rite of circumcision not just because of the ritual but because they were willing to live in the risky faith-embrace of God's action for them, the way Abraham lived long before he was marked by circumcision.

^13-15That famous promise God gave Abraham—that he and his children would possess the earth—was not given because of something Abraham did or would do. It was based on God's decision to put everything together for him, which Abraham then entered when he believed. If those who get what God gives them only get it by doing everything they are told to do and filling out all the right forms properly signed, that eliminates personal trust completely and turns the promise into an ironclad contract! That's not a holy promise; that's a business deal. A contract drawn up by a hard-nosed lawyer and with plenty of fine print only makes sure that you will never be able to collect. But if there is no contract in the first place, simply a promise—and God's promise at that—you can't break it.

¹⁶This is why the fulfillment of God's promise depends entirely on trusting God and his way, and then simply embracing him and what he does. God's promise arrives as pure gift. That's the only way everyone can be sure to get in on it, those who keep the religious traditions and those who have never heard of them. For Abraham is father of us all. He is not our racial father—that's reading the story backward. He is our faith father.

^17-18We call Abraham "father" not because he got God's attention by living like a saint, but because God made something out of Abraham when he was a nobody. Isn't that what we've always read in Scripture, God saying to Abraham, "I set you up as father of many peoples"? Abraham was first named "father" and then became a father because he dared to trust God to do what only God could do: raise the dead to life, with a word make something out of nothing. When everything was hopeless, Abraham believed anyway, deciding to live not on the basis of what he saw he couldn't do but on what God said he would do. And so he was made father of a multitude of peoples. God himself said to him, "You're going to have a big family, Abraham!"

^19-25Abraham didn't focus on his own impotence and say, "It's hopeless. This hundred-year-old body could never father a child." Nor did he survey Sarah's decades of infertility and give up. He didn't tiptoe around God's promise asking cautiously skeptical questions. He plunged into the promise and came up strong, ready for God, sure that God would make good on what he had said. That's why it is said, "Abraham was declared fit before God by trusting God to set him right." But it's not just Abraham; it's also us! The same thing gets said about us when we embrace and believe the One who brought Jesus to life when the conditions were equally hopeless. The sacrificed Jesus made us fit for God, set us right with God.

(Source: BibleGateway)

Not the first blog

So this is not my first blog, but is my first (or second) time changing the blog skin, seems like I am fairly bad at it =/

I don't like it laaarh....
1. Why is my cBox so off?
2. Why is the font PINK, can I change to brown instead?
3. Why is my posting all in brown font? Can I swap as I want?
4. Where is my header???
5. Where is my achieves?????
6. Why the date and time so off....
7. And why is my title not appearing....
8. ..... *wails*

And the whole things is way TOO SWEET
-.-

Somebody save me please. Please Please Please

Smiling and Scribbling.
Are the 2 things that I love the best.
They are also the 2 things that I know how the best
(:
Once I thought, I am going to give up on them.
Once I thought, I don't know how.
Soon then I found out that...
Hmmm that's not quite right
Cause people around has never give up on me (:
Daddy has never given up on me
So I guess... I should never give up on them as well ♥

Thanks for journeying this life together with me
It will be different from yours,
it might be sorrowful at times,
but that's life you see;
tasteful, with salt & pepper, some sugar & spice
And I am sure it will, at the same time, be colorful as well.
Cause I serve an awesome, creative God

Much love,